So… it’s been awhile… again. I have to admit, for the longest time I never really knew what to do with this site. It has been a constant reminder of lost focus, if I ever really had any true focus to begin with.

As Tiffany Dow pointed out on her blog yesterday, for a long time now I’ve been a flitterer. Jumping from one thing to the next, and whether you call it shiny object syndrome or just plain old Adult ADD, I have it in spades. Or had it…

I’ve been reading a lot of self help and personal growth books lately. The one thing they all seem to have in common is that they tell you to a) find out what you’re passionate about, and b) focus.

One of my favorite questions has always been, “If money wasn’t an issue and you could do whatever you wanted, what would you do?”

I’ve never known how to answer that question because I’m so eclectic and even a little eccentric. My interests vary far and wide and into places that only my family and close friends know about because I’m not very open. I’m all about creating the life I want, and I do it without really thinking about what other people see when they see me but it’s hard to put all of that on a blog because everyone says you have to focus on one thing, brand yourself, become a “go to” person and frankly… while I understand that … it drives me nuts. Because I’m not just one thing … it’s a combination of all those things that makes me who and what I am.

If life is about creating yourself, then no one but you should have the final say in how that creation looks. (Unless, of course, your creation is on the highly illegal or immoral side.)

One thing I do know for sure is that in my creation, the times when I feel the best about myself and my life are the times when I have been posting on this blog. Whether words or pictures, creating the blog post has become an art form for me (and I suspect for many others as well).
So it should be that the opposite is true also — if I write and post, I will feel even better.

I think it’s very fitting that I’m re-starting this blog as part of my very first 10k Writer’s Day. Because if there’s one thing I am sure about in my life, it’s that I was meant to be a writer.

All my life I’ve written — stories, essays, poetry, journals, songs. About the only thing I haven’t tried to write at least once is a play or a screenplay. But when it comes to writing a personal blog, it’s hard to put myself out there.

So here I am again, starting over at fifty — definitely not what I thought I’d be doing at this point in my life but I’m excited about the possibilities. And at least now I know the answer to the question.

So if you asked me again,”If money wasn’t an issue and you could do whatever you wanted, what would you do?”

I would answer you, emphatically and enthusiastically, “I would write!”

And so the journey begins. Where will I go? Who will I meet? What stories will I tell? Only the wind knows for sure, but it’s going to be an exciting ride. And I will write about it all.

Let the journey begin!

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1. I Did Write!

I’ve been really lax in my blogging lately.

If I’m honest with myself I’ve been really lax in just about everything over the past month or so. I could probably justify it if it was just here since this is my personal blog, and the one that’s supposed to be just for fun.
But even the blogs and sites I maintain to earn income from have been ignored lately. And I can’t really put my finger on why that is.

In the old days I would have beat myself up over this and pushed even harder. But it’s a new month, the start of my favorite time of the year,and I’ve decided that it’s okay to accept the fact that my mind and my body needed a rest. I owe a big thanks to Shileen Nixon for pointing out that yes, it really is okay to stop and reboot every once in awhile.

After my bike ride this morning I just sat in front of the window, breathed in the damp morning air and thought about mornings that felt and smelled just like this at the cottage when I was a kid. :)

It’s so nice to have the option of stopping and taking a break when I need it. But break time is over now, and I have a new and more compelling motivation to get my act together and create even more success for myself. (Sorry, that’s all ya get for now — I don’t want to jinx it.)

Anyways, the main purpose of this ramble is just to say that I’m back and re-committed to posting more, both here and on the other sites as well.

Thanks for being here!

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1. New Month, New Challenges

I love Mondays. The start of a whole new week and, if you want them to be, the start of a whole new life.

It seems to me like I’m always starting over these days. When you wake up one morning and realize that not only is your life half over, but that it’s pretty much been a waste of time up to this point, there’s really not much else to do but start over. And in a really big way.

So here I am… re-awakened and determined this time to live what’s left of my life to the fullest. To fit as many experiences of love and adventure as I can into the time that’s left to me. And to make as many of the dreams I remember dreaming come true.

Thanks for being here.

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